freedom is my heroin

i was born addicted 

to the open road

endlessly craving

the horizon

my mother carried it in her blood

nourished me with oxygen from foreign lands 

my father gave me my first dose

of mediterranean blue

i would

inhale

the soft salty breeze

in moderation


but once you’ve felt the needle sting

as liquid dissolves into your veins

a little sniff

is no longer enough

six months of pure white sugar

before they cut the supply

forced cold turkey

fevers shivered my skin

uncontrollably 

i vomited

all i used to know

slowly numbed

back to the mundane day-to-day

but

you never forget

angels

kissing your face


i am a junkie

with a limited supply 

fluttering 

between ecstasy and withdrawal 

cutting

harry’s brown curls 

the dragon’s sweet breath

into one-night escapes

and summer landscapes

my hunger unfurls

the wonderful thing is

i cannot overdose

a dose too small

is the true danger

for without it

i shall suffocate