i used to make

the occasional mistake 

shrug

move on

but now 

i don’t even know what’s going on 

i finally feel good 

and then i fuck up again

i wish i just understood

why

i keep making so many mistakes 

my logic tells me

it’s a part of life’s shakes

and one day

it all will pass

(i know this, and trust, that’s why i keep going)

in one year these fickle things

will be irrelevant as grass

but now they tear me apart

too often